It's hard not to be overly aware of time when you have two little ones that make it seem to go so quickly. I can't believe we have already entered September and Wyatt is almost 6 weeks. In a few short months, Stella will turn two. Each day is a reminder to enjoy this time with them. At the same time I feel like we are adjusting ourselves on a regular basis. The constant changing of moods, feelings, favorites, and challenges keeps us all on our toes. Some days go by extremely fast, and others feel like the clock is ticking backwards. I go to bed at night with feelings that range from victory to utter exhaustion. I can't predict what the next day will be like.
Some of the best moments for me these past few weeks have been at stella's bedtime when we are all huddled in one room. We lay Wyatt on the pillow next to her and we all just spend a few minutes there. The dog and cat tend to join us. I've been loving that sweet time with my husband and my babies. My life now is so much different than it was five years ago. My focus all day is on the children when I used to be really introspective. I used to know myself pretty well. Now... I don't really know if I do. It all happens so fast. But I am genuinely happy and content with that. I'm learning more than I could have alone. I don't want to get caught up in being a typical mom... Or my mom... Or anyone else's mom. I want to know my kids and give them freedom to grow.
