Is how protective I'd be.
At this point, only knowing this little human being for two and a half months, I cannot imagine what I would do if anything happened to her. And I am responsible for keeping her away from harm.
I can't tell you how many times I wake up in the night and check her breathing STILL. I'll check on her three or four times during a nap. I check on her while she's in my arms. I am the most cautious driver EVER with her in the car.
Motherhood is the most wonderful thing I have ever experienced, but it's also the scariest. I'd give my life in a heartbeat if it meant she would be safe. I hear stories of people getting their children abducted or taken from them or passing away and I see them in a whole new light. The thought of something happening to her is unfathomable. I cannot imagine how I would continue my life.
My choices do not just involve me and my husband anymore. I think of her. I'm her advocate, protector, comforter, provider. I only want what is best for her.
I see God's love for me in a way I could not understand before, and do not have the words for now. I am a child of his, and if this is how I feel towards my own child, I can catch a glimpse of how he feels towards me. Selfless,looking past faults, willing to give His own life to save mine. This is the greatest love, i am sure.
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